Friday, November 24, 2006
Waited....
SCARE, n unable to go to sleep. realli feel like the end of the world. Ya. My result is out todae. N i was glad to see it. Waited till 4.00am to actualli view it. So i m dame tired NOW. But still i will not sleep tat earli. However, my result is not realli tat good. But i PASS all subject n no sub- paper. YEAH ^^V
Hs3032 D+
Hs3033 C
Hs 3041 C+
Hs3053 B+
Hs3054 B+
Hs3055 C
Hs3079 C+
Wad u tink abt my result le? To mi, i m happi lo. All pass n i keep my way of onli one D n lowest is a D+ not juz a D. All higher standard D haha ^^.
Tis few week was having attactment. First emerency than Operating Place. Than now bnack to ward. was back to the ward i go before. Ward 43. Was guided by the same CI sze ling. She rox ^^. I like her, coz she realli teach us, n guide us. It's nv too late to learn from our mistake ^^. Now still student, mus learn more o ^^.
Tis time realli feel veri stress. Coz i m taking cases n moving one step closer to wad the staff nurses r doing. In the ward. I m onli touching the surface of everi tin. I already feel veri tired le. Some more 6 pt, i onli took 2 of them. I already CMI le. wad u tink?? LOUSY la. dunnoe y everi time come to write report i will start to have headache. N cannot tink wad i should write. Actualli is realli not tat hard ^^. Todae veri happi, Coz got praise By patient, staff nurses ^^ But i noe i still got lots more i nid to learn. I wan to be a Good nurse n save lifes. I will Gib my best shot ^^ JIA YOU ^^
*some times somes tings r better left untold. Some feeling will onli be shared with closes one.
Everione will change, U will change, i will change. Or juz u dunoe mi well enough or i m chaging? But wad i noe is tat, U r changing to sum one who is not u animore. who r u??
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Monday, November 13, 2006
* Pray*
Let mi be strong. Let mi learn from mistake. Let mi stand up n move on after i fall.
Gib mi back my old naive self. I wanna stop doubting n enjoy mylife. But yet get ready n perpare for the worst to happen. Can i do it? CoNfIdEnT is wad i lack. N CouraGe is sumtin i lack of.
Confident to believe in myself. To believe that there is always sumone out there waiting for u. U r nv alone. Confident to see that i will one dae outshine ppl. I m nv a loser. Confident to believe that i can do wad i wan. Studyn result. Work n partnership. Frenz n frenship. Family n homing. Lover n forever. Believe that not always tins are -ve. Stepping on stone to walk my way to reach my goal. But, i m stuck to one stone for a long time before can move on.
Courage to find out the truth. To let go or to hold on. Courage to face my future. To be able to believe in mircles. To help on to sumone dear to u. Courage to accept that people move in n out of ur life. N they nv stay long. Courage to speak up n make a changes in life to help ppl who u cherish close to u. To be able to voice out wad u realli feel. But, i dun have the courage to do all tis. Truth is always nv nice to noe. Sad to noe.
Yet, i dun wish people around mi feel unhappi. I wan them to stay cheerful. happi ^^ always. It's hard to be able to please everione. But yet, y live a life where people r pleased but u r not? Coz that is wad i always do? I wan people to stay happi. I gib all my +ve thots n happiness to u all. Juz hope to see ur smile. If noeing mi is such sadness. I'm sorri, i dun wan u to stay unhappi or cry when u tink of mi. I wan u all to smile when tink of mi. Smile n said. She is such a sweetie>.< Realli that is impt to mi. Rmb my good (i hope i hav). Forgib mi abt my bad. I'm sorri if i hurted u. I dun wan to. I myself oso dunnoe wad i should do. Most of the time, i'm like a lost ship. In the mist of the ocean. I can't find my light house. I dunnoe my way abt n i m knocking on rock that mayb hurting mi. But i dun wish to sink. So pls save mi. T.T let mi sail.
My brain is so tired, my heart seem lost n unable to move on. Where r u? T.T
*LosT n No WhErE tO b3 FoUnD*
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
《Your Heart Will Lead You Home - Kenny Loggins》
Sunny days and starry nights
And lazy afternoons
Yours countin' castles in the clouds
And hummin' little tunes
But somehow, right before your eyes
The summer fades away
Everything is different,
And everything has changed
* if you feel lost and on your own
And far from home
You're never alone, you know
Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share,
Andyour heart will lead you (home)
Funny how a photograph
Can take you back in time
To places and embraces
That you thought you'd left behind
They're tryingto remind you
That you're not the only one
No one is an island
When all is said and done
(repeat *)
There'll come a day
When you're losing your way
And you won't know where you belong
They say that "home is where the heart is"
So follow your heart
And you know that you can't go wrong
(repeat *)
Where you belong I know
your heart will lead you home
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came across tis song, looked at the title. Wad nice title. So clicked on it n listen. Soft n smoothing. Ur heart will lead u home. Jus follow ur heart n everi tin will be fine? Ya. But sum times we juz wish that will be able to do so. i like tis song, nice n sweet. Soft to listen make u feel peaceful. Read the lyric, tink about the ppl who care abt u. Treasure them. No matter wad happen, Dun let ani one of them go. Family, frenz n love ones. u r nv on ur own. I will walk tis road wit u. No matter if it is rocky, tiring or even if we lost our direction. U r not on ur own. Coz i will be here for u. Waiting rite here for u to come back. N walk together again. Nv alone u noe . Tink of mi. I'll be waiting with love to share ^^.
* u r part n puzzle of my life ^^ glad to have u ^^.
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Friday, November 10, 2006
HuMp.
How long hav i not update my blog le? Ya veri long. Now de mi is veri tired. Tired for along time le. Feel like collasping ani moment. Physically n mentally unsound. I M HuNgRy T.T i nid food. T.T Todae is the last dae in AnE there. Nice nice. i enjoyed being there. Realli see alot of tings i nv see before. RTA. Did CRP woot. Lecturer there where oso not bad. Although he ask alot of question, n we dun noe how to answer. he realli make us ASK the stuff n get our answer. ^^ xie xie ni lao si. the stuff there where oso veri friendly ^^. onli thing thati dun like there is tat it is veri cold. realli hell dame cold. tink i might go sick ani time. wahaha. i ot tat week la. I will try to take care of myself de. Try onli hor. coz air con cold not my fault. =P
Now feel like long time nv sleep like tat, feel tired n restless. feel like half of mylife is gone. But i m hungry. Hungry till i wanna vomit. How? maybe i should go n get sum rest. Realli feel like throwing out. OMG-.- Hungry yet dun feel like eating -.-
*heard u both donated blood. Ern, take care of urself n eat more meat. esp red meat. coz i noe last time u dun feel well after donating blood. So take lots of rest, drink more water. n if u realli dun feel well suddenly, eat sweet or chocolates- ur fav. if u got read my blog, pls tag. Least i noe that i m not talking to air. Or i can talk to u le?
Tink i better nap myself. Tired >.< Nitez everi one.
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6:06 PM
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Saturday, November 04, 2006
seem like long time nv realli write wad i wanna said le. Life after exam is realli veri SIANZATION ....
Wad i tink i should do but nv do?
- ask mummy how is she le.
- ask alan how he is le.
- n alot more, juz my brain sum how stop working.
Asked mi for holidae. Become selfish. Than suddenly feel like have nth to tink abt. noe mah. feel like tis few dae lay on bed n look at the celling, is a great enjoyment -.-" OMG. wad the hell m i tinking. Good question, i oso dun noe. Tis feel daes juz feel like living dead like tat. do ani tin oso like half hearted. No feeling for ani game. Juz now play-ed zelda, yet, wo bu xiao xin closed the whole game. Ended up feel veri arrr~~ stupid mi. wan play a game oso cannot. banana finger lor. Coz i tink dunnoe which finger stupid go press Alt key bah. Than haiz. CLOSED the whole game WITHOUT saving. Replay. heh heh. see how first bah. Juz may b wan a lazy afternoon. Roll on the bed n do nth. Than tink abt life. Wad wonderful tins i m doing lying on the bed. heh heh. Funni mi. juz feel relax. too relax. suddenly. mayb should go do some self study. Ya. mayb bah. see when haha. LAZY HARN =P
Ppl pls enjoy ur life, dun like ani tn happen to u pull u down okay ? ^^
i cannot said i'll always be there for u. Coz i onli nid a break. mayb after break than i will be a better fren. Nv said DIE. WooT~~(^,^)
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Thursday, November 02, 2006
Arrr~~~~
Todae was my last paper, n i m happi to said tat. It is a GONE CASE agn. woot. Haha. haiz wad to do, i realli try my best le. woke up 3 am to study le. Than till now nv go nap or wad lor. Coz last paper mah. Juz feel happi tat it is finialli over le. Veri tired n stress. Now tis few dae, i did not realli care wad is happening to ppl around mi. Sorri guys. Ani tin juz update mi bah. M glad to listen. ^^
Hump~~
onli can rest for 3 daes than nid go hospital posting le. Tired ar. let mi see ar 0.o
AnE
6/11 8am-4pm
7/11 1pm-9pm
8/11 1pm-9pm
9/11 7am-3pm
10/11 7am-3pm
0.o haha. First time going there, Hope i will enjoy my dae bah. I will try to enjoy my posting de ^^. Nx Nx wk going operation room lo. Cant wait to go there wor. Haiz 2 wks later result will be out le. So now, play first n enjoy than go die bah. Mind not working veri well. Nthing seem to be coming out of it. Abit of shut down. But least i got sleep 5 hrs so dunnid worri. Juz stress bah. Stress too much le. than now suddenly feel empty. Or all along is empty -.- suan le. I rubbishing agn le. Think i stop here le. Life getting abit... qi guai. I M JUZ TOO SENSATIVE. tink too much lo. arhz dun care le. Harn stop tinking la.
* For u, U can de, jia you wor ^^V i gib u my support. a wannabe. N thank you, sorri .
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