Monday, September 24, 2007
My 22nd post was rather stupid. hahas. I mus admit. Juz feel tat i should hav been more mature in handling my own feeling. too hush. Hahas. but who would hav a sound mind when one was angry? hahas. But now everi tin ish back to normal le. so mah. i guess i m better too. coz ish not maple tat i hate. hahas. ^^ n my sis learned some tin. mi n sissy okay le. ^^ jiu nth le. hahas ^^ feel alot more happi le. ^^ yeah. Zhen de. yuan lai her effect on mi ish so big.
O rite. i wan to eat ice cream agn. I wan to go ice3 agn. Mummi when are u bring mi to go agn? I wan go ask everi one along. I wan eat ice cream. Tis time i dun wan take din din le. I juz wan ice cream can? There got food de rite. we go there eat la. hao bu hao.?? Kor kor n mummi de birthdae coming soon le. N i still haven go shopping sia. I nid to wait for my pay dae. broke le. coming le. afew daes more.
I feel like having a go on the cup paint agn. But i so scare i will sad agn. guess i'll do it tml afternoon. N i oso wish to hav a clean for my cupboard. coz it has been getting more n more messy. Humm. N i oso nid to do some drug study. Gosh tis ish all i wish. But when i m home. I tends to juz sit down n start chatting wif dar. Dar has been chasing mi to study. But doesnt seem to work. hahas
rmb tat dae dar sis masked dar. hahas. My sista. ^^ i noe u can be my best sista de. rite? we always 8 tgt de mah. Online. hahas. I love u lots n lots. ^^
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10:22 AM
10:22 AM
Saturday, September 22, 2007
It has been in my mind for some times. Now that i came to see the light i noe. I hav lost the real you. we seem to no longer hav trust ani more. Half of the tim e i m guessing my feeling. isst yes or no. Now tat i saw the light i noe. Ish a no tat i see. N the best part of. U lied to mi. u hav ur reason to do so. Be it dun wan to hurt mi or scare tat i m sad or wad. Fine i hav nothing to said. Coz u will said ish for the best of mi. Good than contiune tis way. N tis means wad r we?? I realli dunnoe. a fren tat can nv talk truth will nv be close fren. u shut urself up in a room than i will juz shut mine. Let juz be fren. who ask. How R u doing Todae?
I am rather not sad at the fact but sad at the point tat u lied to mi. If u wan choose tat road than do tell mi so. At least when u r hurt i still can listen to u. But since u choose to hide from mi than i noe u will hav to hide all the sadness. Gosh ish more than jus a word to hide from. Already hav some clue abt it. N i guess i'll juz respect ur decision. Fren all the best than. U should be old enuff to choose which road u wan to go now. Since u choose to hide from mi n walk the forest alone. Than so be it.
Maple story sux becoz of ytd. Had a small quarrel wif sis. N now becoz of the stupid weather. We r not talking to each other. Coz she ish HOT. lol. i did talk to her. But she nv answer so i guess u wanted to be left alone?? Arh maple agn. Dunnoe wad she going in for? To get all her char to leave guild. Or wad. If tat's the case. Than mus well quit the whole maple. But we hav different point of view. I wan to get less trouble. She wan to get support. When come into a "fight" i wan to do it in a nice calm way n no ofference. But to her when get into a fight we should support one n other. N in the end. we hav a inter conflict.
Fine she ish letting all her char leave guild. Fine. I noe wad i should do le. QUIT maple. Stop mapling. n juz contiune MY DAME STUPID WORKING LIFE> FUCK
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10:13 AM
10:13 AM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
It's been awhle tat i did my last up date. Tis few weeks. rather tired. But which week m i not tired at all? I oso not sure. Been avoiding rice lately. N oso meat. But of coz i m still taking. like brown rice or bread or cornflakes. But juz not white rice. Didnt realli hav the feel of eating it. Tis few weeks rather attached to biscuit de. Had been biscuiting for a long time. N i guess my sore throat ish coming back soon. Why ish tat so? Heaty. hahas. N i simply love it. Biscuit biscuit. dun worri ppl. i'll still healthy. Rather i tink. with the lack of rest. I'm not sure if i realli lack of it. Ani way i still ish functioning well. But when it come to work i feel tat my brain simply go blank. Blank BlanK Blank ish wad i hav. -.- gosh. save mi. Making more n more mistake.
Than mah wad elsa. I've been getting alot of headache lately. almost everi dae i will get it. Althought it does not last But ish rather painful de. Coz ish usualli rite after work the pain will come. N it will last for 1-2 hrs. Or when i'm home n had finish my bath. N i'm not taking panadol. No no. I dun wan ani pain killer. Coz they kill mi too. Ish not good to take too much u noe? ^^ so mah. I can tahan i will tahan lor. ^^ ish good for our own self. ^^ hahas.
Spelling, english n medical terms. Guess i hav to start studying le. I should sleep eariler n start studying in the earli morning where everione ish sleeping n no one to disturb mi. But i can disturb ppl hohoho. ^^ guess i wan sleep le. Nite nite ppl I tired le. Realli ZzzZZz . oyasumi ^^
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11:28 PM
11:28 PM
Sunday, September 02, 2007
I'll be there
when the tear starts to fall
you feel no hope at all
dont you ever think of giving in
when the rain starts to fall
everything seems so calm
don't you ever frown
cuz i'll be around
and late at night
i'll close my eyes
and pray that one day you will find
the strength inside to show you how to break through this time
whenever you need someone i'll be there
and everything will be okay
cuz we can pray that one day we'll find the love
that will lift us up to the sky
whenever you need someone i'll be there
and everything will be just fine
us hand in hand
we will make it through i'm sure
this i promise you till the very end of time
through the good times and bad
forever we'll always stand
one another to keep our chins up high
and u dont have to be scared
just as long as im there
Tis song is realli nice. Or should i said wonderful. always wishing some one to be there for u when u are feeling down. Listening to the song over n over agn. it's realli smoothing soft n hypnotic. Feel like ZzzZZz-ing soon. hahas. First of all of coz ish meaningful. n he sang it nicely. hahas. well done. Tis song mah intro by andy. ^^ thanks alot darling~ hahas. Nice nice. Thanks for being there for mi ^^ if ani one wan tis song. Find mi lor. i sent u to share ^^. hahas
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4:48 PM
4:48 PM
Saturday, September 01, 2007
seem like it's going to rain soon. Ish red outside. I hope there isst ani thunder. Noe i m always afraid of thunder. Rmb when i was small. when thunder sound. i will sure curl myself up than sleep as close to my sis as i can. I realli scare. hahas. to tink now. i m still like tat. when thunder sound. I will wake up. Than i will feel scare n try to sleep as close to my sis as i can. Hahas. till now i m still like tat. see i'm such a kid.
They said. Onli if u did some tin wrong than u will scare of thunder. But i dunnoe how true isst. I m juz scare of thunder. To tink i hav to sleep alone during thunder storm. Realli ish a good test for mi. Of coz i can do it. Juz i will curl like a ball. Cold n lonely. So dun leave mi to do tat. hahas. During the dae time. Mi mah will still fear of thunder. I will cover my ear or u can see mi hide. hahas. or if u r beside mi u see mi walk closer to u. hold u or wad de. hahas. so old le still scare.
maybe ish the unsecure i feel inside mi bah. Usualli during stormy nite than u noe. Gosh u feel so lonely. Than u noe. U r always alone. feel so insecure. hahas. My feeling. my lonely soul. Now de mi feel better le although at times i still will feel insecure but i still scare of thunder. hahas.
wish it rain but not thunder.
Wish u r beside mi.
Wish u can appear right infront of mi
Wish.
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11:01 PM
11:01 PM
