Thursday, January 29, 2009
" Sheau Harn you realli... irritates mi, I realli cannot tahan already. U are!"
I nv noe such words can come right thru someone mouth directly face to face to mi. Tears i hold-ed back. Since the veri eari morning. Till now while typing while trying to control. My hearts hurts in a million. Now i know, no feedback no improvement right. SUch harsh words from some one mouth. some one u face daily, some one who u work wif. Dame ish hurtful. I didnt know tat i'm been such a nuisances to her. Now i noe, now i understand, from now on. i shell juz keep my mouth shut. ZIP. maybe i noe too much of tings tat my head ish getting bigger. Or maybe i'm getting proud. Or maybe i suggested too much. Okay i shell not ani more. SHUT UP HARN! yes SHUT UP. now i will close. No more. i'll onli open to ppl tat i nid. I will juz work n no talk. I will be quiet. if tat ish wad u wan FINE.
If u tink tat u r good. think abt it agn. Ish juz ppl are too nice to tell u. I thank you for telling mi. I will make my correction and will not irritated u ani more nor ani one. I shell not n will not. Okay. tis ish wad u hav told mi. So okay. Maybe u should hav put it in a better way. I dun care u mean it anot. I will always rmb tat u hurt mi. One mus forgib BUT not forget. I thank you for ur lesson learned. noted and will make changes to it. I will not forget wad u hav done to mi.
Cold n heartless ish wad u make mi more to be. GREAT!
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Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Happi new year to all. Realli ish a "nui" year tis year. humm.
Blessed that it did not land on weekdae than follow by week ends like last year. as my job doesnt allow mi to have public holidaes on CNY like other jobs does. And landing it self on a weekdae follow by weekends means we are the onli choice left for ppl to visit us. Phew ^^ so wif this blessed year, we dun hav to work double on CNY ^^ yeah. But ish for all the chinese onli. So i hav to specially thanks my other colleages tat ish working double so as to allow us to hav a rest on either 1st dae of the new year or 2nd dae of new year. And also allowing us not to work double shift as they will be the one doing so. Poor ting.
felt abit older le. Going to be 22 tis year le. Wish i dun hav to face tat dae. Growing up ish not tat bad. But still i tink i like 21 more. hahas. it shows the youngness and also a touch of the grow up in a person. For ppl who ish younger than mi, Treasure ur daes T.T coz soon u will face the same fate as i do. Than for ppl who are older than mi. well I'm coming. hahas. old le old le. no longer can said i'm underage le. But still when they talk abt some tin when i go blur they will juz said, oei there ish an underage here la. -.-
Nth much to talk abt oso. been trying to work on my essay. Seem like i'm not going veri in the correct direction. all the reseach i hav done ish not to waste but i nid more than tat. Seem like i let of a subject to focus my topic to it. Got to find my way. ish not easy wif my sub standard english. scoring onli a c6 in 'o' level. i tink i'm juz banging my head against the way. Going opposite of the current. tsk tsk. Hey ish new yr i should tink in a -ve direction. But i juz cant help it. tsk tsk. Lucky ish tat i hav alot of other help. Thanks to ppl, who are there for my. Sr kee even dig all her notes out for mi. whether it ish useful a not i still haven go thru. But the effort ish realli.... THANK YOU VERI MUCH. ^^ I did recieve alot of help from other ppl too. But i noe i'll hav to ask, open my mouth to ask and said tat i nid help. I rmb some one tell mi, dun always "hug" all the job to ur self. U will juz tired urself. Tat was when i was working. Now i learn coz you can nv do everi tin by urself. And if u contiune to be like tat u, ppl will take u for granted and they noe u will do. So they juz wait for u to do lor. correct a not. Why so stupid le?? Thanks to tat person, i'm much better although at times i'm still like tat but still i noe my limit le. I'm not wonder women nor superhero and they get more pay than i do so why do i hav to work double harder than they do. O ya coz i'm junior but tat's not the point. so we work. No matter u are older or younger. In terms of experiences, ago and ani others, we work as a team.
kies la kies la. Let mi take tis chance to wish all hav a good year. O ya recieved tis msg of greeting in direct translation from chinese to english so i here by wish all: wish all
Horse Arrive Work Done
Step Step High Rise
Year Year Got Fish
One Road Smooth Wind
Heart Think Work Done
Dragon Horse Sperm God
Gong Xi Fa Cai ^^
n Rmb to love harn more. hahas. Hugs.
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3:12 PM
3:12 PM
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
welcome. =)
I gave up waiting n tinking n changing n not making up my mind.
I gave in. I choose to take the chance of having some brand tat i didnt realli go and do research on. I dunnoe if tis will work well formi But i hope it does. Some how i wish it will last as long as it will be able to sever mi ^^.
LENOVO S10. (red)
will update more abt it ^^
Nitez all.
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1:19 AM
Sunday, January 18, 2009
It's has been since a long time.
When was the last time i set my hands and brain into the kitchen.
Baking...
So wad did i play in my kitchen todae. As we all noe Chinese new year ish around the corner soon so you should hav guess that it mus be some tin to do wif new year. It ish always for sure related to the "big dae" tat will be coming on. Looked thru the net for a few daes. ( actualli juz ytd onli) Read thru some of the pages and than self created my own way again. No wonder nth comes out right for my baking. It nv did come out the way it was said to be. But a veri stable taste from my baking. The eggy taste nv did goes away no matter wad i baked. Tsk.. ish not well done but all n for all i did my best. used 4 hrs to do all tis. But result ish. "It ish almost as hard as stone"- Fish & Hao 2009. Yes tis ish wad they said to my PINEAPPLE TART. And i shouldnt be calling at tart, ehh should be cookies or biscuits. Tsk tsk. ish not tat i wanted. Actualli i m rather confused by wad should be used. But than at times, working at out urself ish more enjoyable. Below are some of the pics for u to see. I did my best. First timer. Dun blame mi dun scold, Gib encouragment. if not i wont be baking agn. *cries*
tired out after all the baking. Ish not tat bad but still "STONE"ish not realli alot le. but still i guess ish rather fun at times. I did enjoy myself. some times for hobbies u hav to pay abit of price. But i enjoyed tis. ^^
Eyes closing le. Nitez all. Loves. ^^ hugs*
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10:55 PM
10:55 PM
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Skipped. todae class. i totally hav no heart to go for class. Why?
> I cant understand wad she wans.
> I cant understand wad should be done.
>I forgot to bring my heart out.
> i dun tink i hav my brain wif mi, I mus hav drop it some where.
> Lazy ass.
> I cant get wad i wanted STAT.
In another words i m or might be a gone case. Tsk Tsk. totally depressed. Now i realli hate myself for not able to improve my English. Despite knowing tat it ish a veri important language i didnt do it properly in my primary and secondary education level. Now i guess the onli ting i can do ish hug my head and cry. Tsk tsk. Although i know it doesn't help in an sense, but still i cant help feeling sad. *sigh* juz the start already sounds like giving up. There goes all the other fighting sprite le. wonder how will i m able to make it. For the time being let mi stay low, at the bottom of the deep blue sea where spongebob lives. No idea how i'll be able to make it. But i noe i HAVE TO. Ish not i wish i can or i try my best but a firm I HAVE TO. make it. I HAVE TO. I gib u my words. But now let mi T.T first bah. Study ish like war to mi. Or preparing for one. argz. I hate war. WOrld PEACE.
Mummi ish bk from her trip todae. Chatted on the phone wif her. she sounded so refreshing. Good for her. She still got one more dae before coming to work too. Complained to her abt my =( during work n also told her abt the complaint letter. Than she told mi abt wad she and daddy did in KL. They enjoyed themselves. ^^ good for them. ^^ She help mi bought my socks le. ^^ happi. i finalli got socks le. yeah.
=( tsk tsk. i cant seems to find ani tin to cheer mi up. Notes sitting infront of mi yet i feel so far from them. I nv felt so before. Last time, i dun remember all the points or infro from the notes but at least i understand. Now, i'm juz lost and cannot be found. i noe i nid time. argz. why m i so stupid. ARHZ. Harn ar. Jia you ar. i realli nid to get my heart bk le. STudy study study~ Tsk tsk. juz for tis week... Juz let mi be. =(
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12:06 AM
12:06 AM
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Class. started. Degree course~ a step started. Tsk Tsk.
Ytd was the veri first class for mi to attend. How should i said it. Totally lost in space. I see stars. ******** Full of question mark. One word came into my mind. RIP~
Ytd was morning shift finish work at 1430hrs but yet due to some tin and as usual mondae blue tings always happen tat veri dae. So lisa got a complaint case from Some stupid doc. So hav to stay back to help find some details. Helped, cant bear to juz leave her die alone -.- . Sr went for meeting till 1645hrs than came back to the dept. So Left dept at 1700hrs. Took a cab home due to already late as class start at 1900hrs. Lisa miss her nap and i too miss my rest. >.< we are both super tired. believe it or not we both late for work ytd morning. Eikz. hahas.
So during class, as usual lisa ish punctually late. Nth much was going on todae juz choosing of topic for project than got to noe when and wad ish our assessment and when ish the due date. My goodness. I tink i cant juz go n dig my own grave. A 2000 words essay. Some more must do referencing. Gosh, and nid to sent the first part to our lecturer in feb. 5th week of our class. darn~ i nid a computer as mine already sick n old n tired of living. So Spider has been moving in and soon i guess maybe my bro will become spiderman as he sleeps in tis room -.- god noes. Ani way tat's not the main point. The point ish i nid a com and i've been working hard. Hopefully be able to get one wif the locum money tat i hav tried my best to earn. I'm still trying to earn more to cover my expenses. Eee PC 1000H ~ aim n target.
Looked thru the notes tat was given. I dun mean everi tin. Onli the front few pages. Than stuck at the reading materials. I guess, i'll be camping at the national library more n more le. I hav to work double and extra harder compare to others. Not becoz i wan to score well. But becoz i m veri poor in english and study, I nid alot more time to be able to understand one lesson. tsk tsk. Sch life + work life. And i wan to take up another learning course. My driving! eikz. Hope i can cope wif everi tin tat ,will be, ish happen.
Been having dry skin on my hand for the past few daes. It dry till it actualli cracks. And when i put lotion moisture the skin. It Hurts! My right hand ish red -.- i wonder wad make it so dry. I didnt do ani tin to it and i had been putting lotion. Hump~ tis ish bad u noe. Should end here le. been a long post. Kies le. Nights all and hugs. (^.^) Sweet dreamz.
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Friday, January 09, 2009
Tis ish the 2nd time such case actualli happen to mi le. Althought you dun realli call tis molest but some how it still create an unpleasant memories in my life. Old uncles. Eiks n Eee to them. i tink apart from my own father, the rest of them =( Such cases happen in my life. I cant believe it to tink tat. Hello look at mi, Pls la uncle find a better one and a nicer one la. Stupid old man. Dun tink fat one will be easier to eat okay. High in cholesterol and not good for ur heart. Will get heart blockage. idiots.
Todae was okay. Juz feel lonely and left out thru out the whole ting. maybe i'm not as talkative ish the rest of them nor m i as active as the rest of them. Towards in a group, i'm more quiet bah. Actualli i juz wish someone to be wif mi. To company mi. But than i guess i should be use to being alone. After bidding byes to them while walking down bencooler street i cant help but to tink how lonely one person can get. Than tink abt why i always said i'm okay being alone and i use to being lonely? Than i noe. no one likes to be alone and no one love to be lonely. Ish juz a form of an wei to ourself. Telling ownself to stay strong. Now i noe, no ones like to be alone including mi. But being in a group still i feel my lonelness. If such a case i rather be alone and feel lonely than being in a gropu and still feel the same. In the end i juz wish tat i hav some one i can talk to, some one i can play wif. Some one who case abt mi. Some one who noes how to hold mi in his arm and gib mi the warmness. Some one. Where ish my someone. Aiz aiz. Forget it.
Dun wan to type on le. If not there ish more darkness to pour into tis page. Tsk tSk. =( Usagi Chng. Lonely~
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11:06 PM
11:06 PM
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
(I like tis line, how true. It always goes like tat)
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
(Tis cant be done. I juz cant hold bk my tears T.T)
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
(I cant do ani tin~ i can onli cry and luff at the same time. It always happen)
Actions speak louder than words.
( yeah 100% but than and again words are hurtful too.)
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
(I dun tink so. I'm totally okay wif tat. I will juz gib my blessing to tat couple^^)
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
(Looking bk ish not tat bad, But rmb to get up and move on.)
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
(Life ish short? at times i find mine too long~)
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
(Yes! totally into tis words)
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
(I realli wish i cant look beside, but my beside ish onli my doggie. =( well ish better than nth )
Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
( =)smile, i do love ppl smile more than they cry. hahas.)
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
(Ya correct it has to be okay if not there will always be a ??)
If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.
(Tis ish wad i did. But tis ish not wad all ppl tink coz sumtime, sumtin if u juz let it go, it will nv come bk again.)
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Todae seem like not a veri good dae for the morning shift ppl. Coz i saw aunty doris cry. My my. some ting such upset her but i dunnoe wad. hush hush~
work ish okay for mi ^^ i'm still alive. Shark i didnt see the time already 12 le. gosh i'm working tml morning. esk... i still got my tings haven pack. o dear tml still nid to work extra hard. thank god we got may coming to help in the morning shift if not i'll be digging my own grave yard. Bless mi >.<
Better faster end and go sleep le. darn. nite all. Hugs.
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Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Baked. So here are some of the comment from ppl who tried.
*Not sweet enough.
*Not enough butter.
*Jus nice not too sweet.
*Wah, if onli i can bake.
*Wah, u noe how to bake ar.
*Not bad.
From all tis, i'll make sure i bake a better cake. Was tinking maybe i should start trainning and by june i will be able to bake a perfect one and hopefully to even coat it wif chocolates fudge. Tat's mummi fav. She onli eat tat. Tat's wad she said.
Wad going on this few daes?
Lots of complaint letter coming in. Hav no idea why ish tis happening but than and again. Wad's new? Mummi said i'm more n more notti But than and again i'm getting more n more of her doing. Tsk tsk. i should go and reflect myself and realli tink before i start saying ani tin. ish not nice u noe. Cant seem to be using my brain. Tsk tsk, than and again do i hav one? I wonder? Humm. Eiks.
Suffered from headache tis evening wasnt veri aware why ish tis happening. Might be i slept too much? Gosh, there ish nv too much for mi. Tis afternoon was rainning heavily and mummi said it was rainning cats and dogs. So asked shawn wad he wans. A cat or a Dog in the end he said he wans a rabbit. I gib him a =.= look and ignored him. Work was okay wif lisa, fiona premjit and mummi. Mummi was to do paper work. Had dinner wif her in the staff pantry. ^^ happi. Noe tat she ish hungry but waited for mi to eat tgt =) so i'm not alone for din din. ish veri lonely to eat alone.
Todae Blog juz some random rants here and there. Lifes goes on. anther dae another year. Before u noe u might be too late to do some tin already. For ex: Playing see-saw. >.< tsk tsk. Dunnoe how will my road be. Worri worri. I juz cant stay positive when i tink abt the economy. Ish been getting bad lately. Tsk tsk.* shake head*
Late le. tml still morning shift. Nite nite le. Hugs. *shaking head* tsk tsk. thou shell not look back but thou ish too scare to look infront. Usagi Hops on. & on. =(
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12:18 AM
Saturday, January 03, 2009
Todae celebrated an early birthdae for shawn shawn ^^ He's actual date ish tomorrow but due to his off dae ish also tml so we did it todae. It was actualli mi who wanted to do so. last year i miss the chance but not tis year ani more. ^^ So mah ^^ A veri haPpi BiRthDaE to Him No longer can he keep said he ish boi boi lo. Hav to grow le. 3 dollar no more change le. Like mi no more 2 dollar le. Need more than tat le.
If u wan to noe how old shawn ish, well u hav to start counting the candles on the cake itself. I'm not going to tell u how old ish he le ^^ hahas. Yes i did make sure tat i put the correct number of candle onto the cake. Dun worri i didnt miss ani one of them at all. ^^ Wif Xiao yuan help, we manage to light up all the candle before the ice cream cake melt. ^^ and sang Bdae song for him ^^.
Cake cutting after the song and candles out. It has melted to the sense of JUS NICE ^^ for cutting. well done. Wad elsa was there for the staff to eat. They ordered pizza and shawn ordered KFC for the staff too. Ish a Feast. hahas. for my darling LISA. non stop eating to her. ai yo.
So Whose bdae coming next in our line. My darling one ish the next lo. 20th april. Than my mummi one 23 june. than will be fiona one. the veri last one lo nov 22 (if i'm not wrong) >.< Hummp. Need to start tinking about how to do mummi bdae le. hav to hav a good idea. Her's still long and i can save some money first before carrying it out. Hummp. wad le wad le. hahas. cant wait for it. Lisa one mah. hummp. she ish always happi de lo. ^^ as long as there ish food. One word. ish not all ppl de bdae i hav to celebrate wif them. ish onli more of the i m closer wif de ppl than will i be so on for them okay. so dun tell mi when ur bdae ish. If i got the heart i will go n find out or i will ask u straight de. Dun nid keep telling mi u wan take off on ur bdae de. I'm not interested or should i said go ahead. I oso will take off on my bdae de. Funni ppl. Sharke i should start to be good gal le. Okay no commen. =P
Still Harn love celebrating other ppl bdae wif them, coz Harn hope tat on tat veri special dae it make that person feel special, to be here in tis world, tat Harn ish here too. hahas. Harn rmbs ur dae, the veri dae tat u r born n Harn like to thank ur mum for giving birth to you coz u are here, makes a different to Harn life. Hugs ^^V
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