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Friday, March 23, 2007

Believe it or not, i m actualli updating my blog. OMG. tis shows tat i m realli FREE to do so. woohoo. Haha. I m not enjoying it at all. Not realli. Some how or another I m having a peacful afternoon at home. Whole dae. Aiz aiz.




Was trying out n doing some "art piece" using the photo shop. Sis downloaded it ytd n did a siggy<--- if the spelling is correct -.- i doubt so ^^ Ani way thot of doing one myself. Since i got nth better to do. Try out n explored. Sis taught mi all the basic before she went off for work. Not realli veri nice thou. But i tink. Well at least i tried ^^ Hey was not as easy as u tink. Here n there. I gib my best le. Found tat some how sis one is actualli nicer than mine. Aiz aiz. No choice. Well, she got the talent. Have a look bah:



Sis work. Colorful nice nice.

Mine is more on the plain side thou.

Aniway i find it nice wahaha. Nth much to write ^^

LoVe all
Relax relax. Chill chill ^^
Tralala
Todoo ^^


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Thursday, March 22, 2007

Exam are over, wad is done is done. N i dun tink ani one can help mi now. Bloody. Tat's the word i would use for my exam. Aiz. i realli have no confident in wad ever i do. The paper wasnt tat tough. Juz i cant rmb a tin that i have study. Did try my best to focus but usualli ended up mind wondering elsa where. Games, Fun, trip, after exam, PRCP n lots lots more. Juz not the infor tat i m studying n absorbing.

Physically refresh, can even kill a tiger. rwar~~ but mentalli. i dun tink i can even handle a "boo". Have no idea wad i m tinking. nid some time to find out wad realli happen to mi. Still unable to function. Noe tat if i still be like tat. sooner or later. i will make ppl around mi irriated wit mi n leave mi for good. Tis few daes behaviors.
> Talk to mi, n u feel tat u r talking to zombie. Nil reaction n reply.
> Ask mi a question, n my reply will be "huh??" or juz sweet short answer. like "kies" or "orh"
> Unable to realli carry out a coversation wit ppl Or it doesnt last.
> Feel tat after talking half way. I feel like shutting up. Silent. Or juz feel like walking way alone.
> blah blah blah.

See i noe my problem. But i juz cant figure out wad i can do to solve all tis problem. At least i m trying not to make everi one piss off wit mi. By responding. Tough tough. O ya. I m not sure if i m having enuff sleep or too much? Juz my sleep pattern abit disturb or isst always it have been like tat. once agn, i slept at 2 am wake up 7 am. -.- actualli is jus to go loo. back to bed. i cant sleep ani more. woke up n started to rearrange my clothes cupboard. Wad the~~ later i m bond to feel tired n go for nap. since long nv have ani long hours sleep le. I wan my 8 hours sleep. Realli miss it veri much. aiz. Even if i got the chance, i oso nv do it.

O ya, i m having my last attachment soon. In a few daes time. Wish mi luck bah. Tough tough. Juz hope i will be able to make it thru. With no difficulties. strive for the best. Everi one out there. Jia you. Nv GiB uP iN wAd eVeR u do. CoZ u are the one, who choose to walk tis road. N since u hav choose it. Than walk it well. N walk it wit a smile. I maybe tired. But i will nv let go. Be it wad type of suitation i m facing n handling. I noe i will have to find a better solution apart from running away. Love told mi. Running away will nv solve the problem. N i once said to love before. If u see a problem: Face it, N fight. N there will always be a solution for everi problem. The best part is. U r not fighting it alone.

aiz aiz. Post abit of here n there. Dun noe wad rubbish i saying. Looking for a nicer skin to change. Now i stand strong. i no longer hide under the mushroom for shelter for fear. I will be brave, even when i fell. I noe i will stand up strong agn. Wit all the support i get. LoVing all. Thanks alot. wo de tian shi men.

Angel, soar thru the sky.
N i believe tat
One fine dae
I will be able to
soar jus like you
=[Spreading my wings]=

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Thursday, March 15, 2007

Was looking thru all the blogskins. Than saw tis pic. Realli veri nice. So took it down n blog it lor ^^. So how or another it reflected on my feeling. Lonely n tired. Juz got tis sense of feeling. Might be due to exam stress bah.

Feel realli CMI. I realli wish i could forcus on study. However, it doesnt seem working at all. Aiz. Realli. tired. Isst always towards exam period tat i will start to feel the stress n stop functioning?? Realli bad at handling stress. Having nitemares n uncomfortables nite. Tired. Realli bad.

Might be even tat i m more scare of my attachment. PRCP. I realli hope i can make it thru. Nv felt to pressured before. Arhz. Everitin juz dun seem to work well. Hate it tis way. How m i going to survive?? Pray hard for mi bah.

=[ LosT iN OwN ThOtS... StrEssEd uP. ]=
Teach mi a way to cope?
I hate it tis way

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Monday, March 12, 2007

Morning, took out my photo album. Wanted to file in some of the picture which i did not do so, due to laziness. Juz got tis feeling of doing so. So i did it. Looked thru all the pic while i filed them in. Picture that was taken at KL. X'mas time. Memorise juz seem to flash past infront of mi. Everi pic tells a story. A pic said a thousand words. Photo that i took wit him. That 2 daes we spent together. Was nv enuff. But was wonderful. Yet sorrow fills in. The problem i face, decision i have to make. To tink back. It was realli exciting n pleasant yet bitter.

After filing decieded that maybe is realli time for mi to sort out all my tings. The photo that i save in my com n nv got a chance to print out. Is time to get them out n clean some space out of the com. Looked thru everi photo. Seeing the different people that i have taken photo wit. My fren & my family. The places that we took photo at. Same like ages ago. Haha. Nv will be able to go back to tat time. The feeling of, having them in my life. Lighten up that part, that veri dae and that veri moment of my daes, my life. Having them, companying mi, thru my happy moment. The happiness n laughter we shared. The peace n joy. Great to have them. Images of us smiling n playing. Memories that fill up the room. Filling up my mind, my heart n my soul. Nv will i forget all tis. Special moment. Special people in my life. Thank you.

seem like my sch life chapter ending soon. Having exam in 1 wks time. Than will be my attachment. After that will be work life. I feel empty. Feeling of sadness. 3 yrs spenting them was WONDERFUL. They make sch enjoyable. Making lecture not so sleepy. Wit paper passing around. N write n drawing on each other book. Copying notes n chit chatting. Sitting at the forbidden area to talk about of problem. Sharing jokes n luffer. Skipping classes together. Who said poly dun hav true frens. I have found them. N i'm realli blessed to have them. Thank you. My life was colored by u all. Forever in my heart, i'll nv forget u all. Till the end of life.

Sitting quietly in my room. Sis beside mi making no noise. Music on. Listening to the song of my windcharm. Tis kind of life. Seem peaceful. Yet i do some time long to noe, wad are the others doing. My believe: Some one enter ur life n nv will they leave ur life. Coz they will always gib u memories. N when u tink back. They are there at the part, that chapter of ur life. Even if u nv talk to them ani more. Even if u both when great frens, but yet lost contact due to some problem. That does not make them unknown or stranger to u. U noe them, n u cannot pretend that u don't. Coz they put color in ur life. Well at least they did in my life.

I realli Love Them alot:
- My pri sch ( dixie, leekheng, n mani more)
- My sec sch (Siew luang, chong ying, mujiao, tian li, ricky, ms tan, jade n the whole les mis group n mani more too)
- My poly (My kukuz family, people that i noe in attachment NUH nurses & staff, etc...)
- My game life (angeloflove ppl, hellzrider ppl, Mummy-maine, alan, kor kor-nong, jeff, andy, n all the cute char ^^ n etc...)
- My love ( my sis , my bro, my mum n dad, My godparent, my relative n oso my dar ^^)

They nv quit in my life. They color my page. They make mi grow. Understand n be able to handle suitation. Being stronger. Getting better. Reflect n feedback. Changing my bad points. Stand by mi when i nided them. Even thou i some time feels lonely. But they are always there. I noe they will always be there for mi. Everione is special n unique.

=[ WalkinG DowN ThE MemorieS LanD. HavinG TheM WalkinG WitH mI. I WaS nV LonelY]=
THANK YOU (._.)('.')(._.)('.') *bow*

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