Wednesday, November 21, 2007
meeting the turning point. here or there? Some one tell mi. to turn to the right. some one tell mi take the left. I dun noe which way to walk. I wan to take the right one. But i m so tired. I wan to turn to the left one. But i juz cant let go. Is not the first dae like tat. I hav been going thru tis for the past 1 whole week. Tis ish the 2nd week le. Cant hurt ani one. Onli can keep it inside mi.
Angel n devil. ish struggling. Devil ish so strong. >.< i cant seem to fight back ani longer. I nid a rest. A long break. but. I realli dunnoe. I m tired n i dun wan to stress ani one. I cant stop helping ppl tink. Tink abt how they would feel. Tink abt. Wad stress they are going thru. Tink abt will i add stress to them Juz make mi feel like breaking down n nv stand up agn. I m juz TOO TIRED OF LIFE.
Bless all.
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10:51 PM
10:51 PM
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Dar has been super good to mi. To tink tat i hav been feeling down n ignoring all his concer was realli stupid. Tis few daes was a total down to the bottom for mi. As in my mood. Ppl will tink tat i m juz beening stupid n trying to get some attention. But to tink of the care i get was realli nice. hahas. But i'm not down juz for tat. Ani way. I m happi now =) dardar did his best to cheer mi up. N to tink tat i almost gib him up. I feel like hanging my self. Coz he ish realli good. telling mi not to gib up n telling mi tat he wont so easily gib up on mi. =) thanks alot.
Haven been paying alot of attention to dardar since i started gaming. But dardar was good. He didnt realli scold mi. n tell mi he will support mi no matter wad i do. But i guess who would wan their GF to ignore them?? hahas. So i said. he ish great =) But poor dar. Coz of mi, loss alot of sleeping time. Sleep late n wake up earli juz to find mi in game. N not where i should hav been. Some time i guess he realli feel disappointed. But he didnt make ani noise. Coz he can oso be a gamester him self. hahas. Life was down but started to pick up ^^. Coz i hav the support. =) n i should stay happi for i hav them.
Sis hav been 24 hrs full time company to mi. Be it at home or in maple. Ani where i wan it to be. Bro has been annoying enuf to make mi shout n scream at him. N wif no effect he will do it agn. -.- letting out all my unhappiness. Ppl has been nice enuf to tell mi straight tat my hair style looks auntie. N i thank them for being so honest. despite tat i feel hurt. wells. at least they agreed wif mi. Ani way i m waiting for my hair to grow. I noe it will take a lot of patience But well i guess tat the best i can do. ish there ani other way? Finishing my leave in a dae time n i guess the most tin tat i actualli lack of ish SLEEP. I haven been sleeping earli n enuff. Gosh to see my dark ring ish even worst than the panda. Aiz. hahas. ani way panda ish cute. hahas. I m juz trying to an wei myself. esk. hahas.
Ne. should be all writen out le. Most of them. I hav been a lazy bum laying at home n maple. hohoho. No no mus start work le. Humm. Jia YoU le. ^^ n to everione too. JiA yoU lo ^^
Smile. n i hope the whole world will smile wif u =)
Best wishes.
LovE all~
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8:27 PM
8:27 PM
Friday, November 09, 2007
Was feeling better than down wif depression agn. LOL how can i ever be better. Wif such kind of nonsense happening. I will nv be able to get better. Rubbish. Rubbish. Wad ever tis hav to take place. Ignored. ish not tat i wan to but some how or rather. it juz happen.
October has ended. Thanks god. No one noe how much i hav suffer during the period of october. it juz doesnt seem rite no matter wad i do. But now all has pass n there ish not a mus for mi to look back at all. October was such a draggy month for mi. Full of shit n rubbish. Mistake here n there. Nv tot tat i could hav make it thru. nah. I always noe i can hahas. It juz another life learning mistake here n there. I hav see ppl making mistake too. N they too hav make it thru. ^^ Congrats to them.
Nov ish here means. I will be having my anual leave soon. Yeah. N i hav been more active in maple. But feel tat i dun belong ani more. Like i was always alone. Apart from my sis. n guild. Gosh i hav no buddies at all. T.T n everi time i heard my sis pop out of log in ppl. i hav none at all. T.T ish rather sad de but than n agn. Does it matter. Nah. Juz a sense of wu liao. hahas.
Dec trip was cancel due to some Stupid reason. Unsafe. HumP. N do u tink Sg ish tat safe. even in SG there are still killing cases happen. Chopped into pieces. N tat to tink all country hav their unsafe. Dun gib mi tis kind of rubbish. there ish no nid. Juz said u dun wan mi to go. Wad the hell. Wad to do. It juz wont work out.
Fire inside mi. Burning. But i hav to hav tat control. The control tat i was seen to hav. ignored. erhz. It juz goes to show. I still hav to keep it inside mi. Tis ish onli part of my unhappiness. There ish more. But when u r sad. It tends to be more. no matter wad u oso will feel angry n sad de la. Tis ish human. Tis ish mi.
Bless all.
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11:35 AM
11:35 AM
