Caught in between of 2 frens. seeing thme going thru their relationship to the end of point. there ish alot of things i would like to said. But there ish alot of tings tat i cant said. the pain tat ish felt in my heart. seeinh her suffering like tat. I understand the pain tat i felt for her. coz it feels juz like wad she ish feeling. The lost of tears tat u cant cry out. when inside ish burning hurt. TO see her "destorying" herself. the pain increase. wishing tat we where bk to last time. wishing tat it was all bk to normal. But i noe. I cant do ani tin. i onli can stand here n see her suffer. n my heart suffered wif her. i didnt noe i felt so attached to her already.

spoken to him. he expressed wad he ish going thru n wad he was going thru at tat time. heard his voice. felt his stress. n understand why he did such tings. looked at the whole suitation. repeating thots in my mind. They lack of communication. realli lack of.

he do not understand wad she wans n she does not noe wad he wanted. He does not noe how to convey his love to her. she cant feel the love tat was given by him. He noes tat she love him n changes for him. she noes tat he ish stress n tot he wanted to be left alone. in the end. he looked out for a listen ear. she was hurt by him.

they hab been tgt for a yr plus. been thru thick n thin. Juz when both where getting better. such tings happen. to end tis relationship or not. doesnt depend on mi. My hearts r soft. I can be veri nasty if i wan to. But all i wan ish she to be strong n happi, him to be happi n reach his dream. i'll do wad i can. but i m not ur fairy god mother nor an angel. god bless.

* i dunnoe wad the hell ish happening to tis mr K. If u dun wan to talk to mi ish fine. Pls dun juz ignore mi. at least tell mi than i wont even bother to go n said hi. waste my effort. bu shi kan zhai love de fen shang i would hav talk it out to u. I juz dun wan to make u brother ship destory becoz of mi. wadever isst. I tahan. for love sick. FINE!* ARHZ~

hump~ ish earli in the morning i noe, n i'm here writing long story. dunnoe for who to read. But for own safe keeping bah. okay fine lets talk. work was like shit. tis few daes it has been busy n busy. n busy. I dunnoe wad ish happening but realli busy. there r times tat i reaali feel verirealli enjoyed severing my clients. there r times tat i m irritated by my client but there r time tat I can chat wif them n oso luff wif them. But there r client tat doesnt understand a single tings at all. n all they wan ish for us to be FAST. HeLLO. I onli got 1 pair of hands. wad can i do. Mr/Ms. I cant do everi task at the same time n not get ani tin done. rite? the more u ask mi to fast the more u r blocking my way to get tings done. so Pls wait we r working our life to make tings fast. stress. i feel so much like... the end... u noe. but i noe there mus be reason for mi to live on. i juz wish everi tin will be over asap.

yes our dept ish getting rennovation tis month end. i cant wait for it to start n to be done. than we will hav a brand new enviroment to work in. wishing for a better life in the new dept. realli hope tat we can work well. n hopping for more staff to join us. we r so lack of staff. >.< o ya. things not going veri well wif my meds. i'm getting some of the side effect of the meds. Gosh. wad ever ish happen ish not good. fridae on nite agn. stress lvl x2. God bless mi pls. i realli feel veri tired.

Nitez to all. god bless. <3