Tis few daes. hav been playing wif my veri new toy. hahas. ish not a toy but a dream. a dream tat i hav wanted to achieve, since i was sec 4 which was 16 yrs old. i rmb tat i promised jade tat i will play her a birthdae song after i learn to play voilin. but it nv did come true. I was however veri hard wroking at tat time. when to find the books tat ish needed. for self learn but wad i lack was the courage n the money to go n buy a voilin. Finalli due to my sis 3 mins of hotness n passion for learning to play voilin. we shared n bought one.

n so i m learning. ern. see who will be the first i play a birthdae song for bah. But now i;m still out of tune most of the time. ish not realli easi n my hand are so tired. hahas. i didnt play alot. coz i still nid my sleep n work. as tis few daes i'm on nite shift.

Tings has happen tis few daes, nite mate came hunting mi down. sadness settle in n i noe i cant run away from it ani more. i hav to face it already i hav been running away alot. ever since it actualli happen. i keep telling myself. it doesnt matter. it doesnt hurt mi ani more. it ish not at all important. But than and agn. tis ish all lies. I noe i mind alot abt it. when u see urself bleeding. u noe tat it ish pain. but u will tell others, ish not pain at all. it doesnt matter. Jus so tat ppl wont worri for u n oso to show tat u r strong. BUT I M NOT tat strong as i hope i m. i noe i cannot hold on ani more. i m down n depress. my wound still hurt.n no one will apply a plaster for u. even if they do. will it help? a correct wound dressing ish needed to heal the wound n wound review actualli help to detect ani infection settling in. usualli will cover wif a full course of antibiotic. which help to fight the bact, n than a ATT ject.

but for my case. my wound has been ani how handle. Tinking tat it ish not important at all. Coz i will always smile. the veri nx dae. But it ish indeed infected already.how i wish. wad i wish for will come true. or should i said. the way i hope ppl would treat mi. or the way i hope i will get treated. i put in effort to treat u nicely. carefully not to hurt u. But it's oso my fault tat when i get hurt i become careless. I become hurtful to u. in some sense i cause pain to u. but yet ish not as painful as the one tat i m feeling. i just trying to tell u. i m in pain. =) i'm a freak .

Once upon.
I open my door.
I see the beauty of life.
I see the smile.
I see the brightness.
a hopeful future.
Than war came.
The knife tat cut thru the skin.
The liquid tat drip down
From the heart.
The pain tat was crying.
I closed my door.
for i cant see no more of such.
in no courage to open agn
alone i sat.
in the darkness.
awaiting n hoping.
for the meaning of
LOVE.

Nice? my doing. hahas. nvm =) i shell be going, preparing for work tonite. T.T so mani more nites to go. T.T kies wish my hav a good nite. Bless all wit hope n future. now i aim for more $$ shell start working harder. to earn my own future ^^. u too work hard o. ^^