Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Blur view always seem to look nicer. isst tat or is juz my past memories. On my way back i saw him. Yes. it's been since a long time i actualli saw him. the feeling. was sweet. hahas. Recalling. all tat had happen recalling all tat i hav done. The birthdae card. Birthdae present. Hahas. If even some one noe abt wad i did in past. I guess i'll hav to find a hole to hide my face. It was. OMG. shy. yes truly. 4 yrs. i even visited him when he ish hospitalized. A card. Big card. alot of tin. Showing my un-limted silliness. hahas. how can i ever forget all tis? There ish more into tis story but i m too shy to talk abt it. N it all sounded so silly n childish.
Recalling all the past n oso the feeling n emotion. The tears the luffer the shy-ness. the pain tat i hav felt. The shakness tat i hav felt when he ish near. The crave for him. haha. make mi always look out for him. n of coz how jade draw a cartoon pic for mi wif his name n mine love forever. Of coz all tis nv came true.
I graduated from the sch. left it n started a new life in poly. But didnt gib him up rite away. It took mi 1 year more to forget him. a yr of missing him in my life. Nv saw him came less in contact wif him. Soon i moved on. nv was it easi to empty out tat space n wish for some one suitable to sit in. I noe my heart will treasure tat who ever tat sit in.
dan dan de an lian. i already can let it last for 4 yrs plus. of coz if i find some one tat love mi like i loved him. Wad do u tink? I'll love him double n hope he will be the most bless-ed guy on earth. But i juz hope he wont suffer tat's all.
my mind still full of him. wish to noe how ish him. But ish not my problem at all. It's already the past. let it flow down the river. but the memories will nv fade. The staircase tat we turn n met. Thx. u let mi hav alot of wonderful yet sad memories. Aiz aiz. should said much lo. ^^ ish the past. Let bygone be bygone. Pls jia you n stay happi. Let it be my past my history my learning point.
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Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Having back ache. Due to?? I oso dunnoe. Seem like maybe i hav been sanding n walking too much or bending too much. i oso hav no idea. But do u noe tat tis will cause mi to grow shorter?
I mean i dun mind growing shorter but but i already ish round. If i grow shorter. I sure become hummy dummy de. I dun wan lo. wad should i do?? T.T i hope it wont realli affect mi .Cries.
Tis few daes keep getting scolding here n there. Sharks. Wish i can perfect my own tins. Keep forgetting tis n tat de. Stupid little brain. Cant even work up wad ish wad. Yao Si le la.
Tat dae got scolded by a doctore. he even complainted mi to my in charge. Aiz. due to i too stupid. Didnt noe which ish more impt. But ani way. he ish a well noe case. So my in charge didnt scold mi. Thankz alot pakcik. Nv put ani blame on mi ^^.
My preceptor was wonderful. But i seem to get her in to alot of trouble. Off n on here n there. Juz by answering a phone call i already didnt do well like she had taught mi. >.< sorri sorri. I oso dun wan tis happen de. But she ish good. she didnt scold mi at all. Thx alots.
Here n there. Lots happen n lots dunnoe how to said n type. Let it be bah. Tired ar T.T
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4:40 PM
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Thursday, August 23, 2007
Online. yes my msn show's tat i m online-ed. yet i m chatting wif no one. actualli it's not the first time it happen. Some time i realli wonder why i leave it online for? hahas. for fun bah. but yet i m so in my own world. In my own world of doing my own tin. Like slacking around. ROAMing my room in n out. ya. feel like a living zombie.
6 week down i started my work had drain mi out. all energy gone. I nid to find back myself. I it seem tat i keep on forgetting tins. getting more mistake in work. Errr. I nid to buck up. i m slacking le. err. more mistake n i'll die a great death. Yoo. i'm still too young to die ehh. hahas. wad to do. The weather outside now seem fine. Juz now was ready for a battle of thunder storm. tot will hav a cold~~ cold ~~ nite. but nah. I will have a scary nite if it rain wif thunder n lightening. They always not my best fren u noe. hahas. least i will hav a peaceful nite. hahas. not under my blanket all curd up. hohoho.
I oso dunnoe wad i'm blogging le. Tis n tat. I HAVE BEEN HAVING BORING WEEKS. work n work n work. nth but work. Hey gal GET A LIFE. T.T n tat's my life. wad can i do. i nid breaks. i wan go genting RWAR~~ i hav been wanting it since i come back from my last trip. i wan get out of sg for tour. i wan go some where wit a nice sandy beach. a big sunny sun. I wan go some where wif alot of shopping center. for mi to walk around n shop. i wan go some where which i can sit down n enjoy my time. But of coz wad i wan cannot be please in one area onli. let see. sandy beach... erm sentosa. ish in sg -.- shopping center.. erm... orchard road? RWAR~~ place for mi to sit down n enjoy time? My home?? in sg ~.~ omg seem like Sg got wad i wan But i dun wan be in sg. I wan go tour.T.T
aiz. i nid to work todae tml the dae after tml. well. take care everi one. i'm sorri tat i m too busy to care abt myself tat i didnt care abt u. Sorri selfish mi. I cant handle my own problem le. how should i handle u? ne? hahas. Love urself before u try to love other.
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Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Happi 20 n 4 mth to mi. Hahas. nTh much juz acting cute. ^^V m i kawaii?? hahas. Kidding la. Ytd wasnt a veri good dae. For that 1 1/2 hour bah. apart from tat it turn out to be rather happi. Ytd alots took place. N i almost loss him. Coz of my own stupidness n selfishness.
I dunnoe why, some how afternoon shift seem to be more tiring than morning shift. Funni sia. stressing myself more n more. i wanna suvive in tis world. Alot of tings i nid to force myself to do. I cannot juz stop here. As a working adult tis ish wad i feel. I m no longer a small kid ani more. But i'm still growning giving mi a gap of wad i should do n wad i wan to do. Still learning n growning. I hav less than 1 yr to get use to all tis. Should i said 8 mth more before i turn 21. An age tat i m adult n i hav to bear everi responsiblity of everi tin i do. No longer can i stay as a child. No longer can i said i still small. Guess everi teenage will wish to go back to their childhood time. But oso there are alot of teenage ish ready for tis world. For mi I have to said. I HAVENT PLAY ENUFF LE. How? Now the onli tin i can do ish. Juz play n work as one lor. But of coz tat means lesser time to play coz i onli got 1 dae off dae. wad can i do wor. Enjoy my fulless during my off dae. but ppl are all working. RWAR~ I realli wan my sat n sun. but still ish the same. i'll juz stay at home n slack. so week dae sounds okay ^^
Nah. i'm blogging fei hua agn. Coz nth interesting ish happening. Juz working n working n working hard. Yeah ^^V jia you ar. Harn, U can de ^^ n to all who ish still studying. DUN WASTE ur time le. PLAy n enJOy Ur life. To the mAx. coz U woNt hav So MucH FuN anI moRe.
Yeah yeah ^^ Jia yOu. Sad sad. Lucky star still left 4 more epid onli. Than jiu no more le. The one n onli cartoon i watched. was Funni. Got time go watch lo. www.crunchyroll.com ^^ hahas.
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Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Rather tired. Slept 2 am ytd. due to i have to finish my ting before i go sleep. hahas. Ytd n the dae before i was having course. Learning venepunture n cannualation. i hope i spell correctly. >.< hahas. have so much fun!? learning. I found out tat i like to take blood. Yoo. I mus be crazy sia. ^^ hahas. As for the cannual ish to put the Tube into the pt vein so as we r able to gib medication or gib solution or wad ish necessaries. for the pt. We dun ani how gib tin okay ^^ n of coz we dun juz poke for fun -.- yo. wad makes u tink tat nurses are so scary hahas. I realli hope to try on some one sia. Nv done it before. Most of them, said tat they did it on their husband or botfren. Since i dun hav. Than i can onli go to my dad. Wad to do.
K-ed ytd wif my preceptor n another staff. Was nice n my preceptor sand dame well. Realli she seems like got go learn sing de sia. realli lor. ended up they keep saying my voice sound so kiddish n ish veri suitable for all the cute cute type of song. >.< hahas. wad to do. First time sing wif them so my voice tends up. Than mah i oso dun dare to hit high notes. Coz scare mah. Yoo.
After k met out wif my frens. My kukus. Had our din talked tgt. Realli wish tat i could learn like them. They are learning alot of tings. Realli nice. i osos dunnoe how will my life be. coz ish so different from them. Seem like i m slacking around more than ani one of them. N enjoying my time. My place was not so stress make mi feel stress tat i wont learn much there. Guess nx time i'll have to go thru another round of learning agn? I dunnoe wad to do sia. Aiz. Better go find some one rich n marri hao le. Hahas. No la. I juz hope i can learn more when i m still young. Aniway after din went for movie.
Watched rush hour 3. ^^ i hav wanted to watch it. was Nice. N funni. Did enjoy luffing sia. Hahas. The way they talk n the words they use. Not a bad show. I gib it a 4 star ^^ afther movie jiu time for home le. coz most of them are having morning shift todae except mi bah i guess. ^^ wells. Ish not i choose the time de ar. So dun blame mi lo. hahas. Home-ed.
If it's worth to pull someone u love out of sometin so scary. I'm willing to help. But i hope tat it ish realli worth it. Prove to mi Tat i m rite to gib u my support from the start till now. Even thout u walked in n out of the door. I hope tis time round u wont enter agn. Not ani more. Pls. Ish not ur place to stay save.
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9:18 AM
9:18 AM
Sunday, August 12, 2007
A dae. a rainny dae. Outside ish raining. N here i m sit beside the window n blogging. Juz 2 dae ago blogged. Now i'm back. Tat doesnt seem to be the usual mi? Nah ^^ juz feel like writing down some of the tings. But seem like no matter wad i write ish a bit on a childish side. Ani way. I rather contiune to hav such set of mind. Coz i'll nv be able to understand a child mind once i lost my "tis" way of tinking.
But everi time i start i will end up stuck. Great lo. Dunnoe wad i should share. Lots of tings ish still better to keep in heart or ish always unorganized. ish tis how u spell tis word? well. my spelling sux. so. hope it doesnt affect wad i wanna said. Yesterdae got a veri angrt irritated sad disappointed news. I didnt noe wad is wrong wif ppl? Y do they have to fell in love wif 2 person at the same time? If u already got one beside u. Always there for u. If u juz learn to tearsure him/her. it will be wonderful. doesnt it works tat way? I tot i wont hav ani reaction towards tis issues. But however when the person who got hurt ish some one u loved. i realli didnt noe at tat point of time i feel like. the whole world all the ppl sux. getting into a relationship seem such a evil tin to do. wad sia. than ish stay single the best?? i realli wonder.
lucky tis thouts nv lasted veri long. coz there r still other couple tat ish staying happily tgt. Juz tis few month seem tat my surrounding frens most of them got a break up or ish getting a break up. tat leads mi to OMG.
Work was going on fine. But ppl make mistake. n i'm trying my best to learn fast. The worst tin was my spelling. I cant spell them correctly. N i juz cant make up the words. My drug sux. Arhz. Which make mi lag more confident. I realli dunnoe how will i be able to do better than tis. Great. My future ish too bright to be seen. how i wish i could do better than tat. Stressed up.
meet janny ytd. went out to have a chit chat wif her. ended up she was too busy to gib calles to make up for the nx kukus meeting n oso her other group of frens meeting. Since ish so difficult to meet than mus well we dun meet as a group. Who ever free than meet lor. Not free jiu dun meet. I understand everi one ish busy. n tired after work. But look at janny who took so much effort to plan n ask everi one out. But yet. Can u all pls treasure her. it's not easy to find another fren like her. N if not for her i dunnoe how to maintain such frenship.
Depress state.
Nth worth mi to look upon for.
Life sux a great deal.
But trying looking in a different direction.
u lost sumtin u gain another tin
n
TiME WaiT FoR nO OnE
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12:15 PM
Friday, August 10, 2007
Heard tis song from one of my fren blod. Yong qi. A veri long time ago de song. From fish leong de. But her's ish from mi lu bing. Ish realli nice. Zhen de. Got attracted to the song. So went n looked around for the lyrics. ish not hard to find u noe.
I tear-ed over the lyrics. Coz i find it realli veri close to mi. I dunnoe. ish like. Ish veri true. Love nids courage. to be able to stay strong n be able to last forever. To make love possible bwt the couple. How wonderful but i realli dun tink ish a happi song oso. Tear-ed ish feel the pain n the suffering. tear-ed ish becoz i feel the courage. we took so much courage to start our relationship. Isst worth it juz to end it like tat? All the hard ship we have walk pass tgt. all the happiness n sadness. Thru the wind the storm n mani more to go. Do we wan to end it juz like tat. rmb all the tings tat we hav been thru? But if u gib up becoz of feelings than i got nth to said. some time seeing one couple jiu like tat gib up everi tin. i'll feel so waste but to tink. if they tgt ish onli suffering than wad's the point? well at least u love before. the most regret ting will onli be. U nv tell the person u love him/her till the dae he/she ish gone. n u nv get the chance.
Time wait for no one~ rmb tis line forever. Love ish some tin tat u cannot gib up tat easily. I noe of a couple who ish struggling. They have had good times tgt. They have had happi memories tgt. But of coz there were sad ones n unhappi ones. There was alot of communications break down. But i m veri proud of her for not giving up. she nv said die before. she still loved him. she still treasure him. care for him.
i noe of another couple. who found out tat her bf 2 timed her. N she wad actualli the 3rd party. But she nv gib up on lovinh him. Coz she realli do. She gib him chance. N hope tat the relationship last forever. Now they are happily tgt. N tat guy treasured her. But still a long way to go for them.
Anothe one wad a long distance relationship. The Guy n gal noe each other thru internet. Than they met n they started their relationship. No one ever tink tat it will last so hope they last forever too.
Another one was the guy loved the gal but the gal got BF le. The guy didnt said much but mo mo de wait for the gal. N even thou he noe there will be no future he still ish waiting for tat gal.
Tis ish the power of love. Love make someone blind folded. But yet love test a person patience. Test a person their power of will. test the way they will handle problem to prepare for a better future. I believe. All tis ppl. They are loveable. Lovely n they noe how to love. Coz love ish not abt giving up. Ish about holding on n doing wad u tink ish rite. Following ur own feelings.
Loving some one ish not weather isst worth a not. There ish no prices on tat person. N u love ish not becoz tat person ish rich or handsome. even if he ish Than ish ur bonus. If he ish not. It doesnt realli matter. as long as u love him. Follow ur heart.
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12:51 AM
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Friday, August 03, 2007
Tis few daes oso got post ehh. hahas. Blog nice bah so post lor. Nth much happen Juz not veri shun li wit work if u ask mi. Godness grace. Now than i noe some one can be so dead scare tat i noe more than her. well tat's the feeling tat she gib mi. "pushing" mi n "snatching" job. not as in physically doing so. But more of a step into ur personal space.
Wells normal reaction ish u will move to get ur own place back. tat it. u move out of ur work area. Tat means.Pen are always ready in her hand. Isst my reaction slow? Rite i'm too fat. tat's why. Not small n cute. But in one large piece. Sux totalli. N i tolerated it whole dae. N smile n Luff wif her. Boy how fake can i be?
tat's work life . or should i said tat's life. Hope i will enjoy my day off wit my sis n bro going Sushi Tml. wanna join ^^ hahas. Welcomes ani. But mus tell mi so i can tell u where to meet. hahas. Ani way. I nid to be on diet. Health screen coming. N i going to scream. LOL. Diet. tis few dae eat alot sia. >.< aiks.
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1:23 AM
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
cranberri-ed. Humm. Tinking wad taken place ytd. wasnt too easi to rmb. Sian ar. when will i be able to get a life. I feel so no life. Where ish my life? where where? Lol. Mummy tis 2-3 dae oso msg-ed mi tat she miss mi. Thank you mummy. I ish not nid some one to miss mi. I ish nid "him" to do so. Tat day i oso fa xiao hai zhi pi qi. Partly becoz i miss him so much n realli wan him bah. >.< aiks I dunnoe.
Tis few dae at work. Seem like i getting less chances to hands on. as more of them noes wad to do. Tat will make mi to hav lesser chances. Plus my preceptor ish not tat patient type n she got alot of other tings to do. tat make mi wonder around alot. Learn from different ppl. here teach abit there teach abit n wad ish best ish some time u will listen to the same tin for alot of time. Repeat n repeat. Like tat oso good bah. least the more they repeat the more i should rmb. But some time will feel can teach mi other ting mah? Hahas. wad to do. I not tat fast but i tink i m not tat slow too. Juz some time no brain onli. LOL
Life ish peaceful n boring. I haven been out to realli do some walking around. I use to love it n hav time to do so. But Humm. Maybe when a person start work tings juz dun hav time for them.N u dun hav the energy to do so too. I nid MORE POWER hahas. >.< aiks. I getting crazy by myself. Hahas. Shell see wad i can do. Arhz i nid cut cat. RwaR~
Take care everi one.
I should stay Kawaii forever.
Hahas i'm crazy
-.-
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