Thursday, June 28, 2007
The Rose
By: westlife
Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love it is a hunger
And endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
And you its only seed
It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who can not seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose
Would said to be a wonderful song to mi. I juz simply LoVe It. I dunnoe y. Not onli the lyric. but oso the tune. Smoothing n such. God. I'm in love wit it. Go find it n listen. Suppper goodo ^^
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12:25 AM
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Thursday, June 21, 2007
To go soft on others n hard on urself seem like wad everione will do. I'm sad. N tears seem to help a bit. here n there. Wad m i tinking? Firstly ish i feel so useless. when dar needed some one. I m not there for him. I noe he ish fan. I noe he feel stress n he had a hard time to solve his problem. N the worst part was, I cant help to do ani tin Except to gib him words of support n listen to his problem. Come to tink of tat. Do u tink all tis will help? Not to ani extend tat all tis will help much.
Without action or to said maybe we can solve it tgt. Apart from juz sitting here n blog. Happily in on my bed. Wad elsa can i do for him? I feel totally Sux. Is not the first time n i cant help him to settle ani of his problem so as to lighten up his load. Not even physcially there to gib him support. If ani ting happen i realli dun blame him at all. Coz i sux. T.T I realli wish tat there ish sometin i can do for him. did wad i can to said. i even hide my sadness from him. which ish totally WRONG. I m sad ish not becoz of other ting. if u dun count as stress tat i'm going to start work. I realli wish to see him happi.
I juz wan him to stay happi always. No matter wad. I fail to do so. >.< aww. My eyes hurt. N still i noe i have to sound good n calm. But how m i to react. Sound happi like he wan mi to be? When he ish so fan? Sound sad n let him worri abt mi to add on to his loads? Wad should i do? i m neither here nor there. All i wan, Is juz dar to stay happi. ISsst too much to ask? I feel so....
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9:34 PM
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Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Been n back from afew malaysia trip. A few as in more than 1. Hahas. First was Kukup. The Weather was realli hot there. N erm. well ate alot of ice cream due to weather. Took afew pic but not wit mi. Nothing much special oso. was a 2 dae 1 dae trip if u were to ask. But we did nth there. Juz to company some relative to go. Relax bah. tat's all i have to said.
2nd trip was juz back ytd. went to my grandfather house in ipoh near by de kampong. Went there to pay a visit to my grandfather. was a 3 daes 2 nite tour if u call tat a tour. Wells. So visited my granfather n i got a chance to visit 2 more person there. Jeff n andy. First time meeting jeff. Felt rather scare coz ish still the first meet n i m still a shy gal pls. mention of tis 2 guys. let mi tink alot. Lots of tings.
Been almost a year since i noe them le. or shuld i said already 1 yr le. Juz i didnt count till tat sharp. lots of tings has taken place. lot of tings has change. Noeing each other better n getting to "lvl" up our closeness n getting into another new lvl of frenship. Sharing problem luffing n crying tgt. Still rmb the first time of juz noe each other de feeling. Nv thou tat ani ting will come tat far. Till now. Realli seem like a movie happening rite infront of mi. except tat i m one of the cast too. If u hav been reading thru n noeing mi well. u would have noe tat tis 2 guy change my life. making different memories . or should i said creating different memories. Yes. there have always be love.
At different point of time different ppl enter ur life. N take u on a coster ride. To be able to enjoy the ride to the fullest. Ish not to tink too much. Guess tis ish wad i have learn so far. To be able to love tat person whole hearted-ly n to be able to gib trust to tat person. It might look easy but when u do it. u'll understand the tough tin ish to be able to not hurt ur love one. Lies are always nid-ed But not for mi.
Brain keep working. recalling ytd chat wit mummy-maine. Lots of tin we hav in common. or to said our feeling n tings tat we are going thru. Yes sometings dun juz talk week , mth or even years to forget. It's not as if we dun wan to do so. We oso wish to be able to forget. But we cant. some time it juz back to hunt us. T.T i wish for her the best n oso for mi the best. Let's both stay true to our dar, dear , sweetheart or wadever sweetie u name him to be. N in turn lets wish our love will last forever. Dardar LovE LovE.
Be strong nv gib up. be happi no matter wad happen. I love you too ^^
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1:52 PM
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Monday, June 04, 2007
Since a long time i actualli touch my blackzcheese. All the memories keep flowing back. Goodness. Rmb how last time i chiong. How last time i train. From a lvl 30plus i get my patient to start trainning it. Daily routine. chionging it to 3rd job. All the past. Now when i touch back the char. The fingering on the key board. Looking at the exp. goin up realli slowly. Hello. Wad do u expect a lvl 96 priest exp to go up in a fast speed.
Trainned whole afternoon till abt 4. actualli i started after my lunch. juz played 4 hrs. I stopped n rest. Haha. Old le. Or maybe i was nv a good trainner. The feeling of trainning it was not at all That strong. But i trainned it however. Still blackz was my main. Is still my char. Juz i seldom train it. ^^ i'm happi to play wit it. Whoes not to play wit her own char? But i nid to learn n understand that it will nv be the same agn. I nid to put down everi partof my memories n move on. Tis is the time tfor mi to move on le. No more tinking back. Wad ish past is past. It will nv nv nv nv Be the same agn. Let's juz move on.
It has been the best part of my memories. No matter how long or how short it ish. i'll nv forget. I juz nid to put it into my memories box. N there i store alot of my past memories. Sadness.happiness or wad ever. No matter wad had happen. I wish that all that i have noe. N all that i noe. Will stay happi always. No matter who u are, where you are. n wad u doing. Stay happi n cheerful. You have choose tis road so way it well. Together along wit the ppl around u.
You can always find mi here. althought some times i will go MIA. ^^ but i m always here. Use ur heart n find mi. I will stay true. Ani problem i'm willing to listen. If u are willing to share. Zhen de. Willing to do so. My dear frens. I LoVe YoU all. ^^
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