Sunday, November 30, 2008
If you wan to noe wad happen to the new A&E, you hav to start wif the logo n our best staff ^^ Uncle teoh. there u go. A good sign for everi tin well functioning n working.
than u will hav the front view of the counter. the one u will see once u enter the door. The night shift along wif the morning shift ppl. n doctors.
O. look once u saw him coming in. u noe the morning shift has already started 1 hr ago n ish time for work. Morning doc taking over.
Our nurses counter ish juz like a class room study area. ^^ cute. Dun forget out VERI VERI impt E room. Ish written there Hope ish big enuf. Than we hav our isolation area. Look thru the glass. shawn shawn ish checking n making sure of it.
Than comes our checking n triage area. Smiles ^^ after tat will be the waiting area for the patient. see tat wheelchair sign ish a toilet we are proud to hav. ^^
Last but not least our pharmacy room. BIG now all medication ish relocated. it takes TIME for us to get the med. n stool needed Coz ish so HIGH UP.
seriously speaking. we are still veri messy n more than 2/3 of the time we r running around like idiots. as we cant find our tings at all. dare. functioning well? Not realli. we still got alot to go. alot more to do before we realli settle in. it has been a veri tiring deas. yes deas. but everi one ish suffering togethere. so let's all do our best for the new dept n make it a better place for us to work. we will get use to it. while working down the road. i hope more ppl will join us n work tgt wif us too. ^^
O. late le. tml still working de. god bless all. Love~ ^^ ~
O. late le. tml still working de. god bless all. Love~ ^^ ~
HUGS ^^ I love love A&E
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12:34 AM
12:34 AM
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Cam-ed as tis will be our last few daes left here. Soon we will be moving bk to our old- new home. Here was nice cosy but rather small to work wif. So fast 2 months already had pass. N finally our old - new home ish going to be ready for us to move bk. Lets go thru one by one lo.
the 4 golden flowers. hahas. The nurses counter. The small space where everi ting (paper work) takes places. (left to right : Virginia, Mi^^,lisa & fiona)
Than together wif our dearest in charge of the dae ^^. O 3 little chickens, 1 egg wif A old & Experience rooster. hahas. ^^
Than we have night team most strongest men. Mr Rudy. Dun pray pray okay. u nv noe wad he work as last time..... ern. he's a nurse for years. Experiences one okay.
In our treatment room. O see tat guy. Our new porter. Rui jie aka robin. hahas. He was force to hav an english name. =P if not he would hav become ( ah jack- by uncle teoh, ryan- by lisa, JR - by ellainne) hahas.
See it or not. fiona fly-ing. wif the help of our strongest male in the dept. hahas. tat was so much of luff-er. hahas. bet no one ever can forget fiona FLEW!
The veri last pic was juz a side shot of our new home. it's ready soon. We are now slowly. Not realli slowly but moving in soon. 28/11/08- 0800hrs starting work there. Shit on tat dae i'm working double. Bless mi ish so new n i m working double there.
Super nice but super long. Tis time round we realli nid to walk hard. Yes walk! so... hummm. ^^ i looking forward. yes realli looking forward. But i'll miss HS some how.
O well. we hav to return to our home right. Kies lo. take care le. ^^ love all. Bless all. Nitez.
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10:34 PM
10:34 PM
"Welcome To My Life"
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
*
# To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life*
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
*#repeat*
# To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life*
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
*#repeat*
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
*#repeat*
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
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12:07 PM
12:07 PM
Sunday, November 23, 2008
My xmas tree. Did i nit said Mine? hahas. yes. i stack the tree up all by myself n deco it all by my self the way i tink it ish nice. n tink onli. coz i'm not a designer. wahahaha. have a look.
All miss out ish my stars. hump. i nid it i nid the stars. so i hav to start looking for one. hopefully, i will be able to find it. sooon tis tree will fill up wif presents below the tree. For my family. ^^ seem like i nid to work harder n to hav time to shop for their presents ^^
O well. ^^ hope all will hav a good xmas. To be able to spent wif the one u love. I guess i will be spenting wif ppl tat watch mi grow. n work hard tgt wif mi. ^^ i love love them too. ^^
Love all. God bless.
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8:40 PM
8:40 PM
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Ish not tat i cannot put down. ISh i like to look bk to the tings tat has happen in my life. to feel the feeling once agn. at time i goes into depression i will tink abt tings. =.= If i cant let go. i will hav. Or u would hav see mi in news. humm.
Memories ish always there for us to look bk to see the happi the sad the fault. Than to learn from mistake. tat ish wad i tink. I noe i get into memories n tink abt why i hav done tis n tat. than get realli depress up there. But i understand wad's done cannot be undo. For sure i dun wan to go bk to the past. But knowing the mistake makes one to grows.
aiz. life. tat's life. wad can i do?
god bless, nitez all.
Hugs.
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11:14 PM
11:14 PM
Friday, November 21, 2008
A professor began his class by holding up a glass with some water in it.
He held it up for all to see; asked the students,' How much do you think this glass weighs?'
'50gms!' .... '100gms!' ......'125gms' ......the students answered.
'I really don't know unless I weigh it,' said the professor,'but, my question is: What would happen if I held it up like this for a few minutes?'
'Nothing' the students said.
'Ok what would happen if I held it up like this for an hour? ' the professor asked.
'Your arm would begin to ache' said one of the students.
'You're right, now what would happen if I held it for a day?'
'Your arm could go numb, you might have severe muscle stress; paralysis;
Have to go to hospital for sure!'ventured another student; all the students laughed.
'Very good. But during all this, did the weight of the glass change? ' asked the professor.
'No' the students said.
Then what caused the arm ache & the muscle stress?'
The students were puzzled.
'what should i do to make my arm feels better?' asked the professor.
'Put the glass down!' said one of the students suddenly.
'Exactly!' said the professor.' Life's problems are something like this.
Hold it for a few minutes in your head; they seem OK.
Think of them for a long time &; they begin to ache. Hold it even longer &; they begin to paralyze you. You will not be able to do anything.
It's important to think of the challenges (problems) in your life, but EVEN MORE IMPORTANT to 'put them down' at the end of every day before you go to sleep.
That way, you are not stressed, you wake up every day fresh &; strong &; can handle any issue, any challenge that comes your way!'
Remember to 'PUT THE GLASS DOWN TODAY!
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Such a simple story but meant alot. To be able to function well n function normally we hav to learn to put tings down. Although it ish not easy to do so but in the end keep tinking abt it doesn't actualli help u solve the problem. at times onli by letting go will u actualli see the solution to the problem. So learn to 'put them down' to let go ish the best way to distress urself. n to be urself agn. =) smile n the whole world will smile wif euu.
Harn learnt to smile =)
Love all. God bless. nitez ^^
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11:15 PM
11:15 PM
Still here. standing right on the spot. Still here. No movement at all.
Still pumping. the usual rhythm it juz keep on pumping.
wish it would stop. For awhile. or forever.
Than i shell work. n make it pump faster.
faster n faster. Than...
wait for it to break down. awaiting.
i juz wan to be alone. for a while....
Juz awhile more. Let mi lose everi tin. Let mi understand wad ish important. Let mi noe. Let mi be a huamn agn. Let mi understand why does it pump. for better or for worst? It juz keep pumping.
Thumb... thumb.. thumb...
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12:20 PM
12:20 PM
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
It would had been a better world for mi. if i hav been a better gal. if onli i hab been a better lover, a better person, a better better better human. But i m juz a human, a human who ish no greater than ani one of u out there. u make mistake so do i. although wad ish done cannot be undone but these feelings can nv fade away so easily. Be it happi or sad. angry or boring. Tings will pass. Knowing tat u r doing well. I m glad. Although i wish i nv hav done such tings. Althought i wish i nv had get too close wif u. although i wish i nv had hurt u. n although u had hurt mi but nv get to know tat. Things will pass. n time will heal all the wound. Be it big or small. it will get heal.
Harn has nv been veri truthful to her self n to her own feeling. Harn has always been keeping n keeping her own feeling. Harn will not tell ani one when she ish hurt. she will juz hide n hide n hide. Till she cannot take it. Than she will cry. after tat? She will learn to accept tat tis ish her fate. Than she will learn to let go. But all tis take a long time to go thru. Than harn will start again hide n hide. So the one tat realli understand Harn one can onli be Harn herself. Harn hate most ish her self. Coz her best fren ish oso her worst enemy.
Harn learnt a lesson. Harn wan to said sorri to ppl who she had hurt. Harn promise to be a good gal from now on. Harn realli noes her fault le. Harn will nv hurt u agn. Harn will juz keep more to herself. Now Harn ish blank. n onli wan to stay as blank as ever.. Harn will juz stand here n wait. Harn dun wan to move ani more. Harn juz wish Harn can be Harn. But Harn will n can nv be. The Harn tat she wans to be. Harn will take the pain. Take the fault. N move away to stand in blank. alone.
The past makes my present. I learn my lesson. N bleed-ed my head n heart.
LOve all. God bless.
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11:02 PM
11:02 PM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
My hands. or should i said my fingers hurts. Darn. why isst so hard? i cant seems to get the chords right. ish onli 3 chords u noe. But they doesnt seem to sound right at all. So it said it takes 1 week for ur finger to get use to all tis. I mus keep on going cannot gib up half way if not i wont be able to learn. I wan to learn it. arhz. Juz feel like learning it. i noe ish tough but I WAN. aiz aiz.
Todae was okay. nth interesting nthing fun. had been working wif the same team of ppl for the pass 3 daes n i simply LOVE it. wif beth, lisa n fiona. Woot. Love it. we hav a good time. working together, I dunnoe wad they tink but i like working wif them. actualli i dun mind n like working wif others too. Maybe onli one person tat i cant take. The rest are all loved. hahas. Poor uncle teoh had to work so mani daes of double shift. wonder when will be the new porter coming to help sia. He ish not young ani more u noe. Rite our new dept ish getting ready soon. soon we r moving bk. Rite i nid to take some pic of the dept we r in now before moving bk. >.<
Sleeping soon. rather tired. hope to wake up earlier to go for some jogging. haven been exercising for a period of time. gosh. A pack of old old bone le. i feel old. hahas. kies la. tat's all folks. Bless all. Love~ nitez.
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12:10 AM
12:10 AM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
o.O woo.. welcome to my house. hahas. A new instrument. Gosh. soon my house can realli turn into a band room. But too bad. i wish i hav such talent on all of the instruments but u now u nv noe how to play if u nv learn. wan to learn but sort of i got so much to learn. my piano oso hanging there. violin oso hanging. i learn flute for one piece of music oso hanging there. ai yo. now one more guitar. awww. erhz. how how?
life getting more n more boring. I guess i got too much of learning to do. N o ya. My unhealthy life style. I wan to change it. wan to go bk to jogging. But darn. i got no shoe ar. should get a pair of jogging shoe soon. wad else ish in my mind? let mi see.
> get my citizenship done.
> learn driving.
> pass my driving test
> start sch soon.
> work extra hard for more money.
> buy Nds for my sis.
> Buy a lappy for myself
> learn how to play piano
> learn how to play violin
> learn how to play guitar
> learn how to bake.
> learn alot of tings ar.
seem like some other tings slip out of my mind. arh nvm. Guess my brain ish not working well enuf. hump. wad can i said. o ya. ytd outting was okay. Nthing tat much fun nthing tat much interesting nor exciting. But i guess lisa n fiona did enjoy them selves well. so did leo but ern jermery mah jiu not so sure le.
Harn ish simple n simply glad. Harn learn to move out of the anger zone learn to let go of tat feeling of angry, than to re- accept someone bk into my life. a fren. juz a normal fren. Harn grow. Harn learn. there ish still alot of tings Harn nid to learn. First ish to learn how to make own life more exciting n oso to finish all my wish list. Harn ish not young ani more. Harn nid to learn fast Harn left onli few years to live. Harn ish simply happi coz ppl around mi ish living well n good.
But harn ish not happi for herself.=( coz Harn ish tired of living. wad ish life? i dunnoe. i'm juz starting to find out. but Harn ish not enjoying it. Harn nid a break. a quiet life. Harn wan go some where elsa to live. where i can do wad i like n wad i wan to do. Open a shop n bake cakes. a cafe. learn to play piano. live life beside the sea. a simple life. alone.
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11:24 PM
11:24 PM
Monday, November 10, 2008
WoW... yes wow. can u believe it i juz finish 3 nite shift. Came bk at 7 plus tis morning than bath n sleep. woke up 1230hrs than 1500hrs started work again. Woot. let mi see how mani hrs did i realli sleep. humm. 4.5 hrs of sleep woot ar. hahas. than when i reach work place prem said to mi tat i m trying to shorten my life span by 25 yrs. hahas. ish not tat i m realli doing so. Juz u nv understand tat i nid money n since i m still young n still can cope. why not work harder?
Seriously speaking it realli shouldnt be the way of living n resting. Since last week i didnt realli hav ani dae off. The dae before night shift i worked afternoon shift. Than on saturdae i went to my god ma house for her birthdae celebration. than worked. tat dae suddenly felt giddy. sundae morning home rested well. Than night worked. Than todae home morning. afternoon work WOOT~
if u were to ask mi, m i tired i will said no. But i tink if i m not wrong. My system are all veri tired. hahas. okay la. still working lor. But i tink my eyes are the one suffering the most. Of coz, they are open for so mani hours. 19.5 hrs of 24 hrs le. hao le i shell be good n treat my eyes well. protect them before they are hurt.
call of the dae bus no 166 little india 147. hump. stupid.
God bless all. Love all. Nite nite everi one out there. i wan to learn driving soon n o. 2 more weeks to sch life agn. LOvE
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11:17 PM
11:17 PM
Sunday, November 02, 2008
oct 19th
the last dae i ever see him agn. Sound wired, feel funni. Tings are going to change from now on. Knowing my anger ish still there. Knowing tat all tis take times to recover. Knowing tat i was being bad stabbed, By some one i tot we r fren. To tink back wad has taken place n wad had happen. The tings i did n the tings i owned him. I return le. Be it u hav play wif my feeling or tat u hav juz wanted to play. I dun wan to know ani more. fire. such words n hurts. Harm-ed. Harmlessly.
Oct 20th
A break to start it all. tis ish an impt break for mi. Tings getting bk to wad it use to be. A dae to walk out of all the tings tat hav gone thru. To tink abt all the happiness all the happi time i hav spent wif my OPD frens. ish hard to ever happen agn ani more. Treasured. knowing the on coming daes will be a different view. First time after so mani weeks. Resting at home agn. Misses home. Felt like apart, Nv has been so lost before. Home. ish the onli place tat no matter wad happen to you, you are always welcomed. Home sweet Home.
Oct 21st
special shift work. ish actualli my day off but rather than off i'm working locum. Busy. Why everi time i work locum, it ish always hard earn money. Cant i slack some how.=P well i guess not. aiz aiz.
Oct 22nd.
Double double. one word BUSY~
Oct23rd.
luckily ish a afternoon shift if not tat goes. I will be having problem wake up agn. But ish lisa dae of double. Busy agn. Are we having SALES or wad? Hump~
Oct26th
Love Love. I specially love tis veri sundae. I hav been looking forward more than ani tin. Juz for a chance to meet u up. tis ish thee best dae. althought we didnt do much but juz company ni ish already the best dae of my week. went eating jap tea buffet. than eat n eat Jus eat la. ai yo. too bad we didnt take ani pics. n we hav juz tat few hrs to spent tgt. I realli would love to spent more time wif u. Zhen de heng xiang. spenting time wif a person who love u as who u realli ar. No matter how fat or ugly u are. Juz love the way u r. ish the best person u can hav in tis world. Thanks alot. i m who i m. n who r u to judge who i m?
Oct 27th
happi light festival. hahaha. Double agn. BUSY~ pre pre already busy. Pre oso busy. actual oso busy. Specialist flowing up n down in n out too. ~ HELP URSELF PLS~
Oct 28th
I'm suprised tat i actualli can wake up. WAH ~.~ an A shift. woot.
Oct 29th
A rest dae to make mi work hard for 2 coming double. and in the end i end up working extra hard to make a video for biebie. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qL0h7kj9tQQ
bie said was welldone. But i dun tink so wor. I tink theere ish more i can do better de. But maybe nx time bah. ^^ tinking how we will be spenting life tgt. tings wont be the same. humm. alot more friction. lot more problem. But i realli hope lot more understand.
Oct 30th.
i wanted to said tis.
2 month ago. i started an interesting relationship. Got to know someone i tot we can be soul mate. Besties. than 1 month ago. we celebrated our spenting of get to know each other for 1 mth. todae we r like juz passer by. Some one less than fren more than stranger. all becoz of wad he had done. You are the one tat make an ending to everi tin. You are thee onee tat make tings ugly. dun blame mi for ani tin. Blame wad u did. I return all tat i hav owe u. truth was told to u. Even if i was a bitch i was an honest one. How can some one as honest as mi be a bitch. but u. let time heal my wound. I hav no more anger. But dissappointment
Oct 31st.
Double agn. Tired. errrrh. Love letter. come come. I dun care. ish not worth severing you. I rather u write letter n complain. Than i rather get some scolding than severing u. U make no sense. Come write wad u wan. I dun care. Stupid ppl.
Nov 1st.
A shift. I hav to admit tat i m tired. Realli tired out tat i dun even hav the enegry to go out n tat i nid to take nap. gosh, tat means. i actualli tied myself out. tis ish bad. realli bad. headaches But i refused to eat panadol. No way. No para no no.
Nov 2nd
all the anger has gone down. be it for him my grandma or ani more elsa. has gone way down. i figure out tat. It has none to do wif mi n tat even i hold tat breath of mine till last ish not going to help. Wad's the point than. let bygones be bygone. let the wounf heal but leave a scar to re mind myself. already fishing. wad's nx. My bed. >.<
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11:46 PM
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